doxophobia - n. A fear of expressing one's opinion or being praised.

jenna. 19. INFJ. reader, dork, photographer, booktuber, musician, christian, fangirl, college student.


I apologize ahead of time for excessive photo spamming, fangirling, and rambling that will follow this sentence.

First off, if you don’t know, I went to meet Megan & Liz today with my two friends Danielle and Natalie. We didn’t know what to expect, and when we got there around eleven we came to find out that they had moved their gig from two to five. We had to spend about five or six hours at the mall while we waiting, but it was all worth it. 

When we got to the store, there were more girls than we expected, but not a billion of them. All the ones we talked to were really nice, too. Anyways, we got in line, got our wrist bands, and then all of a sudden there were screams: Megan & Liz were walking to the back of the store. I wisked my camera away from Natalie, and ended up getting some blurry pictures, but one of them has Liz waving, so it’s okay. 

After waiting for another ten or fifteen minutes, we all shuffled to the front of the store (from our line) and circled around two stools. Megan and Liz came out and played about three songs (“Are You Happy Now”, “Happy Never After”, and “Princess Charming”) all acoustically, and then we got back in line for the signing.

When Danielle, Natalie and I finally reached the front of the line, I was given the opportunity to go first. I was so frantic and yet so calm. I asked if they would sign a piece of paper for my scrapbook instead of a CD, and they were all for it. So, as Megan signed first, I told Liz that I had a folder for them with cards (for each of them), a message from a Tumblr fan, and a CD of my music. Liz made the most amazing face when I told her about the CD, and Natalie actually got it on film. The way the girls look into your eyes makes you feel so good about yourself. When I gave Megan the folder, she commented on how organized I was (just like her). I was so happy.

Next the three of us grouped together for a picture. They were so sweet and they hugged me after. But, again, when they looked at me, it was so amazing. I just wanted to sob because they were so pretty and so nice and so inspirational. Speaking of which, one of the last things I told them was that they’re my biggest inspiration…aside from Taylor Swift, of course. They chuckled and totally understood me. 

I am going to spam all of you with a few pictures now; hopefully you appreciate them. You guys. I’ve met Megan & Liz. 

Dear Macers,

I don’t know if I should be doing this, but there is a chance I’ll be seeing Megan and Liz at their FYE tour thingy on March 3rd. That is next Saturday. I am trying to come up with something cool to give to the girls, and I have a few ideas for myself, but I want to get you all involved.

I’ve seen people talk about making binders and things with fan letters and stuff, and I kinda want to try that. So, here’s the deal. 

If you want to type up a message for Megan and Liz, please send to me (either though fan mail, message, or EMAIL at your words. I won’t accept any literal mail, sorry. Send by March 2nd, please!

But you can type anything encouraging/loving. Don’t send me hate because I will flip out on you. (They are flawless, and you can’t change that.) You can talk about just about anything, and then I’ll print out as many messages as I can and put them together somehow for the girls. If I meet them, I will give it to them. I will tell them it’s from their Tumblr Macers. I will let them know they’re loved. 

You don’t have to sign with your name, either. If you want to put Anonymous, that’s totally fine. (; Leave any messages FOR ME ABOUT MEETING THEM under your name/signature. Okay? 

If you have questions, please feel free to message me, email me, fanmail me, etc. I’m totally a nice person and I don’t want to jip any of you off. Okay? SWEET. I’m super excited but so worried it won’t work out, so please pass it on.

If all goes as planned, I might be meeting them next Saturday.

If all goes as planned, I might be meeting them next Saturday.

Are You Happy Now? - Megan & Liz Cover

"Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace. And be thankful.” - Colossians 3:15

Time for the obligatory “I’m thankful for…” post. I know it’s cheesy, but these past few months I’ve really been thinking about what I’m thankful for. I’m not gonna do a long list; instead I’m going to post a few important things and explain what they mean to me. They aren’t going to be just anything, either. They’re going to be deep. I promise. 

I’m thankful for the people in my life. I know this is extremely general, but I didn’t want to limit it. There are so many people who’ve made a difference to me. Hannah; you are the most beautiful best friend anyone could ever had. We’ve been through everything, and you understand me better than anyone. Molly; even though we’re friends because of a fight, you are so important to me. You do crazy things with me that I could never do alone. Danielle; there is no way I could get through school without you. No one else lets me talk as obsessively about Taylor Swift, Doctor Who, or Harry Potter. You’re like my portable Tumblr. I’m so glad that you and I have become so close. I will never forget you. Mom & Dad; you are so amazing and you want me to follow my dreams, and I’ll never thank you enough for supporting me. Jon; you never fail to make me smile…or put me in a rage. I wouldn’t exchange you for any other brother. I love you so much. Laura; thank you for making me feel like a teenager. And pushing me to be the best I can be. My cousins (Whitney, Elizabeth, Paige, Natalie, Samantha, Jari); I am jealous of all of you. You’re beautiful, fun, and your families have everything I wish I could have. You come home to beautifully filled houses with Southern hospitality, lots of activities, and amazing lives. You can’t tell me otherwise- I think you are all perfect. To all the people who’ve supported me, who have been nice to me, who have been there for me; whether you be someone from my church, a random person from one of my classes, or even one of my followers, thank you. When I’m not sure of myself, I rely on you guys to make me feel better. And usually you do. You’ve helped me understand who I am as a person, and you’ve supported me in some way. Thank you.

I’m thankful for the music in my life. I am so fortunate to be able to have an iPod, and to be able to play the guitar, and to be able to sing. Music is the reason I’m still standing. It’s the reason I’m surviving high school. Taylor Swift; you’ll never see this, but I honestly don’t care. Your music is just beautiful. And so are you. Kate McGill; thank you for noticing me in a crowd of crazy fans. You’ll never know how much that means to me. Meg & Dia; thank you for Here, Here, and Here. That is the album that shaped me as a person, as a musician, and as a writer. Darren Criss; your musicals are some of the most amazing things ever. There are so many times I’ve been doing my math homework and wrocking out to “Goin’ Back to Hogwarts”. Christian Caldeira; you have the most amazing voice. It never fails to make me smile. And your Harry Potter music is my favorite Wrock music ever. Uhh. I just die listening to it. Megan & Liz; even though I go through spurts with your music, I will never not love you. You came from the Midwest (just like me!) and made it into the music industry. You’re probably some of my biggest role models. And I’m pretty sure you’re the reason I started taking guitar lessons. Thank you. Paramore; when I first heard of you, I never thought I would like you. Your music has gotten me through a lot, and I’ll never thank you enough. 

I’m thankful for how fortunate I am. Even though I’m not rich, I’m not famous, I’m not really pretty or popular, I don’t get everything I want, I am fortunate. I have too many things. I have an amazing family. I have so many supportive friends. I have a beautiful town filled with wonderful people. I have three meals a day. I have a warm bed. I have a beautiful house. I have the whole world in front of me. I have opportunities for the future. I have good grades. I have a nice school. I have an able body. I have all of my grandparents. I can smile. I have people who love me. I am alive and living, and I have God on my side.

After watching some of Megan & Liz’s new videos, I’ve just gotten really inspired to do something with my room. A few years back we painted it and got some new stuff for it, but I haven’t really done anything to make it my own. Yeah, it’s got my crap in it, and I sit in it all the time, but there isn’t anything on the walls.

What I really want to do is put up some twinkly lights and hang some photo frames. I think the only problem is I don’t have that much money. So, basically, if you know of a good cheap place to buy some frames or lights, let me know. 

I’m even thinking about making a photo folder all for inspiring/pretty rooms. It’s all Megan and Liz’s fault. Thanks guys.